Here’s what I’ve been feeling lately: my creativity is stunted, my drive diminished, and my overall mental state is in a far more self-pitying place. I’ve been a comedian for ten years and have experienced varying levels of achievement. None of it enough to feel successful, by my own definition.
Thanks so much for sharing. This is relatable as a visual artist around the same age. It can be hard to share less positive things as there seems to be a taboo on it (capitalism?). This is why I like the Podcast 'Terrible, thanks for asking'. Also how do you execute not comparing yourself to others? Sometimes I unfollow certain people, but then sometimes it can be even be my mom who says 'I see your ex-boyfriend keeps getting grants on Facebook!'. And then no-one shares all their failures and grants they did not get, or menial jobs they have to survive. For my own mental health, I try to sometimes keep a journal of daily accomplishments or gratitude. Doing something new/different/innovative/cool can be hard, or not having a certain niche and audience.
You're definitely a bold voice and ahead of your time. You actually have enough guts to be the female Andrew Dice Clay. Not a huge market for that since most of your submissive male fans live life in the closet. Would be great if we could just be ourselves and pay top dollar to see you live, but it is hard to imagine. So as a consolation, I can offer my praise. You're smart, funny, sexy and worthy. And I can give you 5 bucks a month for the newsletter.
(new reader here) I really appreciate this post. I'm in comedy as well and it's a tough field that certainly takes its toll. I think you're a great writer and hope to see more!
Thanks so much for sharing. This is relatable as a visual artist around the same age. It can be hard to share less positive things as there seems to be a taboo on it (capitalism?). This is why I like the Podcast 'Terrible, thanks for asking'. Also how do you execute not comparing yourself to others? Sometimes I unfollow certain people, but then sometimes it can be even be my mom who says 'I see your ex-boyfriend keeps getting grants on Facebook!'. And then no-one shares all their failures and grants they did not get, or menial jobs they have to survive. For my own mental health, I try to sometimes keep a journal of daily accomplishments or gratitude. Doing something new/different/innovative/cool can be hard, or not having a certain niche and audience.
Love this. Keep your head up and keep going
You're definitely a bold voice and ahead of your time. You actually have enough guts to be the female Andrew Dice Clay. Not a huge market for that since most of your submissive male fans live life in the closet. Would be great if we could just be ourselves and pay top dollar to see you live, but it is hard to imagine. So as a consolation, I can offer my praise. You're smart, funny, sexy and worthy. And I can give you 5 bucks a month for the newsletter.
(new reader here) I really appreciate this post. I'm in comedy as well and it's a tough field that certainly takes its toll. I think you're a great writer and hope to see more!